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Wednesday, October 5, 2016

12 months!

I can not believe I have one year old's! This years has been the fastest, craziest, foggiest, happiest year of my life! I can not image my life without them!

Bennett (Right)
Weight/Height from 10/04/16 appointment: You weigh 21lbs 13.9oz and are 2'6.5". 
Sleep: You are still sleeping like a champ for the most part. 
Clothes and Diaper Size: Most clothes are 12 months- 18months. You are in size 4 diapers.
Diet: You are officially on whole milk. You've adjusted just fine. Now to discontinue bottles.. not looking forward this one. You LOVE food. You eat everything and are really good and feeding yourself.
Products We Love: Still loving our Phil and Ted's Lobster chairs and Sophie. You are loving your plates and sippy cup.
Milestones: We have a crawler!!! You are everywhere these days and seem much happier now you can follow your brother around and get into everything!
Likes: You sing, babble, and laugh. You love looking at yourself in the mirror. Love cuddling (be-still my heart!), and being held. Love to eat and being sung to. Love stretching and hanging out in your bead- just like your Mommy!
Dislikes: Being left out or alone. Being hungry. Having to be still to get your diaper or clothes changed.


Cameron (Left)
Weight/Height from 10/04/16 appointment: You weigh 24lb 5.4oz and are 2' 7.5" tall. 
Sleep: This month has been pretty good minus a few horrendous nights. We think your molars are coming in.
Clothes and Diaper Size: Wearing 18 months-24 months now. Size 4 diapers.
Diet: You are officially on whole milk. You eat most things and LOVE fruit. You're working on feeding yourself. You do pretty well but are still messy and just not quite as clean as your brother. :)
Products We Love: Still loving your Phil and Ted's Lobster chairs and SophieYou are loving your plates and sippy cup.
Milestones: You are taking 3-5 steps at a time and cruising everything. It's only a matter of time before you take off!
Likes: Standing up, holding your hands so you can attempt to walk, and being able to see everything. Love being sung to and clapping at everything. 
Dislikes: Laying down or anywhere where you can't see everything, not getting attention when you want it and being hungry. Still not the biggest fan of the pool. Hate having your diaper changed or changing clothes.

Friday, September 9, 2016

Five on Friday!

Hey Lovies! Look at me posting 3.. yes 3 times this week! I'm so happy I finally found a few minutes to blog! Here are 5 things for the week..

+ Here is a sneak peak from our photographer we had this past weekend at the beach. I was worried we wouldn't get one single decent picture because Cameron refused to nap that day and Bennett was not interested in paying anyone any attention. Bennett was busy digging in the sand like it was his job! But this one.. be still my heart! I'm equally nervous and excited to see how the rest turned out!

+ Saw this on Facebook and kinda got emotional (ok- EVERYTHING makes me emotional these days but still). So much truth in this for me!

+ Who is over half way done with Christmas shopping?.. Wait yes this lady! I know I'm ridiculous but it feels so good to not have to worry about shopping and just enjoy the holidays with my little family and the real reason for the season!
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+ We have absolutely NOTHING planned this weekend and to say I'm happy about it is an understatement. We have PLENTY to do around the house and preparing for the boys first birthday party in a few weeks. So now I hope to enjoy before the party chaos starts!

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+ Yesterday we took Cameron back to the doctor for what I felt like was the 100th time lately. Poor baby has still had a cough that just won't go away. Our doctor listened and asked.. who has asthma? I raised my hand. I have allergies, asthma, acid re-flux, and syncope. Well it's looking like this poor kid has asthma and acid re-flux (we've known about this for awhile). He is showing signs of allergies but I keep praying that is not true. They sent him for a chest x-ray just to make sure there isn't anything else going. They put him in a hospital gown. I LOST it! Thank god my husband was there to take him back. It was all I could do to hold it together with Bennett. They got the report back super fast. Normal except for ASTHMA! Poor baby is on breathing treatments 5 times a day!!! We go back in a week to re-evaluate further treatment. Please keep him in your prayers! Send wine for me. #allthemomguilt


Cheers to the Weekend!!


Linking up with Christina and April.

Linking up with Karli.

Thursday, September 8, 2016

If you had told me..

As my precious monkey are approaching their one year old birthday I feel a flood of emotions that I feel compelled to share.

If you had told me.. how hard Mommy life is I wouldn't believed you. I would have sighed and thought well you probably got pregnant easily so this is the hard part. Well now I understand. I understand more than I ever thought. There is a tiny human (in my case 2!) that depend on you for EVERYTHING! You jump at every sigh, whimper, gasp, laugh, and cry to be there by their side. And heaven for bid that tiny human is sick. It will drain every last bit of life of you Momma. But it's short lived.

If you had told me.. that the nights are long and the days are short. I would have laughed. How can being up all night make the days so much shorter. But boy oh boy do they! I seriously feel like the last year of my life has passed as so quickly as a bat of an eye. There were more times in a haze or fog than not. More days of me praying for it to slow down than I can even count.

If you had told me.. that you will fight to not lose yourself in this thing called motherhood. I would have doubted you. I mean how could want to be anything more than a Mommy?! There are moments when I miss my old childless self. The thoughts of shopping, eating out, mani's/pedi's or getting things accomplished will fill my mind. But it's brief and you are reminded of this wonderful tiny human that is so much more fulfilling than any of the empty routines you were used to. Don't get me wrong. You need to still fulfill those things every once in a while. You still need to be you but a different you.

If you had told me.. that I would come to appreciate my mother on a completely different level. I would have believed you but I would have never understood the magnitude. I wouldn't have made it through this past year without her. Something about being a Momma- you just know things about your kids. I could just call my Mom and say Hey.. she could hear it my voice. She would say.. I'll be there as soon as I can. Usually in a few hours (she lives about an hour away). She would drop everything. Work, life, plans.. EVERYTHING to be there. Whether it was watching my babies so me and my husband could sleep, cooking food, cleaning my house, laundry. I didn't ask my Mom. I never had to.. Momma's just know! At least mine does and I'm forever grateful, appreciate, and love her even more than I imagined.

If you had told me.. that finding feel quality to spend with your spouse  would become almost impossible. I wouldn't have thought that spending time with your kiddos and husband wouldn't be the same. We struggled but are VERY fortunate to have so many family members willing to help with the boys. The time spent as a family isn't quality time with your spouse. It's all about your kids. That's not a bad thing but you need time just the two of you. Just to talk. Enjoy a quiet meal. Have a drink or just get out of the house. It's become imperative in our marriage to find even just an hour of quality time together makes us better parents.

If you had told me.. that I would barely see my friends the first year. I wouldn't have been able to fathom this. I prided myself on having some of the best friends you could ask for and seeing them somewhat often. Once these monkeys came into my life. I became all consumed. I leave them all week, how could I leave them again? Truth we all become busy bees. It's not a bad thing and I'm fortunate to have such amazing friends that we all still talk regularly. I treasure our time a lot more these days as it's a lot a fewer time than I ever imagined.

If you had told me.. that leaving my tiny humans with someone else for work would be this hard, I wouldn't have thought it possible. I mean it's just leaving them so you can work?! I've cried more days than not. I miss my babies more than I ever thought possible. I NEVER thought I would ever want to stay at home. I seriously debated selling our house so I wouldn't have to go back to work. It was WAY harder than I ever thought imaginable. I think of every worst case scenario. I curse myself for not making better career decisions earlier in life. I pray about this EVERY day. Some days are easier than others. Some I feel like every four letter word possible for leaving my boys with someone else to care for during the day. I feel like I've missed so much!

If you had told me.. that being a good Mommy and a good Full Time employee is impossible. I wouldn't have thought so seeing my amazing coworkers. But let me tell you.. I struggle. If the boys are doing well and sleeping well. I am on my A game. If one baby, both, or worse all three of us are sick.. God helps us. I'm doing good to function during the day. Much less stay on top of work, blog, stay organized, and etc. It all goes to survival mode and I'm doing the bare minimum at most.

If you had told me.. that this entire experience would leave me grateful yet still longing for a third baby. I would have probably slapped you. I've always wanted two kids. My husband is adamant we are done. I'm still struggling if I am okay with that. I want to provide the best Mommy to my children. I want to provide them with things I never dreamed of not to mention college. Maybe I just long for another cuddly squishy baby but my jury is still out on this one. I will say that I won't do any fertility regimes but if God was willing- I would be over the moon grateful!

If you had told me.. that I would become one of those Moms that cries at everything! I mean EVERYTHING! I would have rolled my eyes at you. Because those people were just annoying to even be around. I mean to cry? It used to make me super uncomfortable. Now.. I cry at everything too. I'm one of those!

If you had told me.. that your heart would fill so full. I would have never grasped it. It's unlike anything you can explain. This tiny human was inside you, from you, a part of you. It's completely unlike anything I've ever experienced. I can't even describe how much I love my two little monkeys. I'm still in awe that God entrusted me to be their Mommy.

Linking up with Danielle.

Linking up on Thoughts for Thursday with Annie and Natalie.

Tuesday, September 6, 2016

11 months!

One week ago today this little monkeys turned 11 months! I can't even believe that in 3 weeks I will have 1 year olds! Cue all the tears! For now here are my 11 month olds..


Bennett (On the Right)
Weight/Height from 07/07/16 appointment: You weigh 19lbs 4.3oz and are 2' 5". 
Sleep: You are still sleeping like a champ for the most part. 
Clothes and Diaper Size: Most clothes are 12 months- 18months. You are in size 3 diapers.
Diet: Formula, purees, and regular food. You LOVE eating off Mommy's plate. You literally scream if anyone is eating anything around you. You want to eat too. 
Products We Love: Still loving our Phil and Ted's Lobster chairsSophie, and your lovie. Love your new car seat too!
Milestones: We have a crawler!!! You are everywhere these days and seem much happier now you can follow your brother around and get into everything!
Likes: You sing, babble, and laugh. You love looking at yourself in the mirror. Love cuddling (be-still my heart!), and being held. Love to eat and being sung to. Love stretching and hanging out in your bead- just like your Mommy!
Dislikes: Being left out or alone. Being hungry. Having to be still to get your diaper or clothes changed.

Cameron (On the Left)
Weight/Height from 07/07/16 appointment: You weigh 21lb 11.3oz and are 2' 6" tall. 

Sleep: It's been hit or miss this month since you've been sick for most of this month- ear infections and suspected seasonal allergies. 
Clothes and Diaper Size: Wearing 12 months-18 months now. Size 3 diapers.
Diet: Formula, purees, and regular food. Your brother screams for food and when we feed him.. you then scream for some too. You can kill a cracker in no time flat and still love all the sweet fruits!
Products We Love: Still loving your Phil and Ted's Lobster chairs and SophieLove your new car seat too!
Milestones: Still pulling up to stand and are a little daredevil when it comes to climbing and getting into things. 
Likes: Standing up, holding your hands so you can attempt to walk, and being able to see everything. Love being sung to and clapping at everything. 
Dislikes: Laying down or anywhere where you can't see everything, not getting attention when you want it and being hungry. Still not the biggest fan of the pool. Hate having your diaper changed or changing clothes.


Time PLEASE slow down!!

Thursday, August 25, 2016

Send Wine!

Happy Thursday Lovies!

How is it not Friday yet? We have some sort of plague that refuses to leave our house. The boys were at the doctor twice last week and just finished antibiotics but we ALL seem to have some cough that refuses to go away. Fun times! Praying this nonsense leaves ASAP!

+ Last week I helped throw a shower for a dear friend. I didn't take one single picture. I mean WTF is wrong with me?! I was in charge of cupcakes so naturally I ordered some. They were so pretty when I picked them up at lunch. After this ridiculous heat and humidity and riding in my car from 4-6. This is what they ended up looking like. I was so sad!



+ So this happened at work..
I NEVER planned on being here this long. You just kinda get comfortable and too lazy to go anywhere. Grateful for the wonderful people I work with but sometimes I feel like I want to do more. #stilldon'tknowwhatiwanttobewhenigrowup

+ My boys were holy terrors Tuesday night. Of course my husband was off playing softball so I was solo. They were whiny fussy babies- I'm blaming that on the lack of naps from the day. They were into EVERYTHING they weren't supposed to.. tables, fireplace, cords. To top off the night while I was changing Bennett.. Cameron decided to play with some books off his shelf. Well, he pulled on the shelf and this happened..
SEND WINE! 

+ Thank goodness they slept the entire night last night! Can I get an AMEN?! I sooo needed that night of sleep. Now if we could get rid of these coughs. 


* Don't let these cute faces fool you.. they can be little terrors!

Hope everyone is having a good week! 

Linking up with Danielle.

Linking up on Thoughts for Thursday with Annie and Natalie.

Tuesday, August 2, 2016

10 Months!

Happy Tuesday!

I can't believe it's already August. Even crazier.. I have two - 10 month olds! How did that happen?!


Bennett (On the Left)
Weight/Height from 07/07/16 appointment: You weigh 19lbs 4.3oz and are 2' 5". 

Sleep: You are still sleeping like a champ for the most part. 

Clothes and Diaper Size: Most clothes are 12 months- 18months. You are in size 3 diapers.

Diet: Formula, purees, and regular food. You LOVE eating off Mommy's plate. You literally scream if anyone is eating anything around you. You want to eat too. 

Products We Love: Phil and Ted's Lobster chairs.. seriously! BEST THINGS EVER!! And no they didn't sponsor this but seriously.. buy one of these! Still love Sophie and your lovie.

Milestones: You are trying to crawl. You can't quite get it going but I feel like you will have it any day now. You can sit yourself up now as well. 

Likes: You sing, babble, and laugh. You love looking at yourself in the mirror. 

Dislikes: Not being able to chase after your brother when he's off crawling. 

You LOVE to grab Mommy's face and push your nose against mine. It's seriously the sweetest thing ever! You are still kinda of a Mommy's boy but I love every minute of it.



Cameron (On the Right)

Weight/Height from 3/31/16 appointment: You weigh 21lb 11.3oz and are 2' 6" tall. 

Sleep: You FINALLY starting sleeping through the night after vacation- thank you Jesus! I am hoping this trend continues because Mommy is loving it!

Clothes and Diaper Size: Wearing 12 months-18 months now. Size 3 diapers.

Diet: Formula, purees, and regular food. Your brother screams for food and when we feed him.. you then scream for some too. You can kill a cracker in no time flat and still love all the sweet fruits!

Products We Love: Phil and Ted's Lobster chairs.. seriously! BEST THINGS EVER!! And no they didn't sponsor this but seriously.. buy one of these! Still love Sophie. Anything you can chew on you like.

Milestones: You are pulling up to stand on everything and attempting to cruise. I feel like my days of a non-walker are limited. You started clapping and mimic us this month. 

Likes: Standing up, holding your hands so you can attempt to walk, and being able to see everything. 

Dislikes: Laying down or anywhere where you can't see everything, not getting attention when you want it and being hungry. Still not the biggest fan of the pool. 

You give angel kisses perfectly and giggle. You are obsessed with touching Mommy's teeth and buttons on clothing (especially if they are shiny). 



We moved you both to your big boy car seats this month. Mommy couldn't handle carrying you anymore in the bucket seats. You both seem to have adjusted well to your new seats. I can't believe that we are less than 2 months away from your first birthdays. It feels like yesterday I was VERY pregnant and you were born. Time flies when you're having fun! 

Thursday, July 28, 2016

What I've been up to..

Well hello there Lovies!

I know I know.. I suck at this whole blogging thing lately. Honestly I feel like I've sucked at life. I have had 4 blissful nights of uninterrupted sleep and it has been a God sent! First time of consecutive sleep since my little monkeys made their debut into the world. I'm praying it's a new normal because the last few weeks have had me spiraling out of it. I don't know how you Mommy's of more than one kiddo do it. Kudos! I have so much to learn from you all! Here are a few highlights of my life lately..

+ My house.. well it's a wreck! No sleep, trying to feed babies, bathe babies, work, vacay, birthday parties.. well the house is on the back burner and I hate that. I want to hire someone but my husband says no unless I cut back on spending. I may or may not be looking for quotes behind his back. Sometimes you just gotta do it!

+ My phone.. completely full of pictures of my kiddos and zero room for anything else. I mean not even room for an app update. Sadly most of the pictures are old. I wasn't able to take one single picture with my phone on vacay. I MUST sit down and transfer them all over so I can free up some space. And how do you delete those sweet faces from your phone?! Mommy issues.

+ My computer.. well it's on the fritz. I think it has a virus. I attempted to take it to the geek squad but I could buy a brand new laptop for what they wanted to charge me for a virus clean up. I mean that's ridiculous. I need to find someone savvy in computers and pay them in alcohol.. any takers?

+ Work.. has been well just INSANE. I like that I am busy but some days I can't even think straight. Very thankful to have a job but some days I wish I could just be home with my monkeys. A girl can dream, right?

+ My boys.. have been so fun lately. Bennett has started trying to give angel kisses but he just rests his forehead to yours. He puts his little hand on my face and I just melt! Cameron is a pro at angel kisses and thinks they are hilarious. He has the sweetest laugh and that kid is into EVERYTHING! They will be 10 months old on Saturday (excuse me while I hold back tears). They are my heart!

+ Vacay.. well vacay was ok. Too short! It started off with funeral services for one of my husbands dearest friends. He was in a car accident the week before July 4th and never recovered. His injuries were too extensive. I wasn't close with Ryan but it hit me harder than I expected. He was a father.. of two little girls- 7 and 9. Breaks my heart that they won't their Daddy to watch them grow. I couldn't even talk to his wife. All I could do was cry and hug her. I can't imagine my husband leaving us and our boys. My heart, thoughts and prayers go out to his family. Out of this tragedy something amazing resulted. Ryan was able to save 3 people by donating his organs and possibly 3 more with his bone marrow. Please keep all of these families in your prayers. So after this I was emotionally and physically drained to kick off vacay. I didn't get much accomplished. I didn't take but like 2 pictures of the boys but I soaked up every minute possible. I lived in the moment and hugged my babies a little tighter so overall it was good.

+ Baby Food.. I've made everything possible for my boys. They LOVE food and have become little eating machines. I love knowing what they are eating but I will tell ya.. I hit a wall the other week because I felt like I couldn't keep up. I almost broke down and went to buy prepackaged food. Then I just decided to try to eat more of what the boys can eat and that's helped a bit. They are getting to the point where they'd rather eat off my plate anyways.

So my friends.. I'm a HOT MESS but I'm trying to regroup around here. Slowly but surely. And if you made it this far- I'm in SHOCK! Happy Thursday Lovies!

Linking up with Danielle for Confessional Thursday.

Linking up with Annie and Natalie for Thoughts for Thursday.