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Friday, September 9, 2016

Five on Friday!

Hey Lovies! Look at me posting 3.. yes 3 times this week! I'm so happy I finally found a few minutes to blog! Here are 5 things for the week..

+ Here is a sneak peak from our photographer we had this past weekend at the beach. I was worried we wouldn't get one single decent picture because Cameron refused to nap that day and Bennett was not interested in paying anyone any attention. Bennett was busy digging in the sand like it was his job! But this one.. be still my heart! I'm equally nervous and excited to see how the rest turned out!

+ Saw this on Facebook and kinda got emotional (ok- EVERYTHING makes me emotional these days but still). So much truth in this for me!

+ Who is over half way done with Christmas shopping?.. Wait yes this lady! I know I'm ridiculous but it feels so good to not have to worry about shopping and just enjoy the holidays with my little family and the real reason for the season!
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+ We have absolutely NOTHING planned this weekend and to say I'm happy about it is an understatement. We have PLENTY to do around the house and preparing for the boys first birthday party in a few weeks. So now I hope to enjoy before the party chaos starts!

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+ Yesterday we took Cameron back to the doctor for what I felt like was the 100th time lately. Poor baby has still had a cough that just won't go away. Our doctor listened and asked.. who has asthma? I raised my hand. I have allergies, asthma, acid re-flux, and syncope. Well it's looking like this poor kid has asthma and acid re-flux (we've known about this for awhile). He is showing signs of allergies but I keep praying that is not true. They sent him for a chest x-ray just to make sure there isn't anything else going. They put him in a hospital gown. I LOST it! Thank god my husband was there to take him back. It was all I could do to hold it together with Bennett. They got the report back super fast. Normal except for ASTHMA! Poor baby is on breathing treatments 5 times a day!!! We go back in a week to re-evaluate further treatment. Please keep him in your prayers! Send wine for me. #allthemomguilt

Cheers to the Weekend!!

Linking up with Christina and April.

Linking up with Karli.

Thursday, September 8, 2016

If you had told me..

As my precious monkey are approaching their one year old birthday I feel a flood of emotions that I feel compelled to share.

If you had told me.. how hard Mommy life is I wouldn't believed you. I would have sighed and thought well you probably got pregnant easily so this is the hard part. Well now I understand. I understand more than I ever thought. There is a tiny human (in my case 2!) that depend on you for EVERYTHING! You jump at every sigh, whimper, gasp, laugh, and cry to be there by their side. And heaven for bid that tiny human is sick. It will drain every last bit of life of you Momma. But it's short lived.

If you had told me.. that the nights are long and the days are short. I would have laughed. How can being up all night make the days so much shorter. But boy oh boy do they! I seriously feel like the last year of my life has passed as so quickly as a bat of an eye. There were more times in a haze or fog than not. More days of me praying for it to slow down than I can even count.

If you had told me.. that you will fight to not lose yourself in this thing called motherhood. I would have doubted you. I mean how could want to be anything more than a Mommy?! There are moments when I miss my old childless self. The thoughts of shopping, eating out, mani's/pedi's or getting things accomplished will fill my mind. But it's brief and you are reminded of this wonderful tiny human that is so much more fulfilling than any of the empty routines you were used to. Don't get me wrong. You need to still fulfill those things every once in a while. You still need to be you but a different you.

If you had told me.. that I would come to appreciate my mother on a completely different level. I would have believed you but I would have never understood the magnitude. I wouldn't have made it through this past year without her. Something about being a Momma- you just know things about your kids. I could just call my Mom and say Hey.. she could hear it my voice. She would say.. I'll be there as soon as I can. Usually in a few hours (she lives about an hour away). She would drop everything. Work, life, plans.. EVERYTHING to be there. Whether it was watching my babies so me and my husband could sleep, cooking food, cleaning my house, laundry. I didn't ask my Mom. I never had to.. Momma's just know! At least mine does and I'm forever grateful, appreciate, and love her even more than I imagined.

If you had told me.. that finding feel quality to spend with your spouse  would become almost impossible. I wouldn't have thought that spending time with your kiddos and husband wouldn't be the same. We struggled but are VERY fortunate to have so many family members willing to help with the boys. The time spent as a family isn't quality time with your spouse. It's all about your kids. That's not a bad thing but you need time just the two of you. Just to talk. Enjoy a quiet meal. Have a drink or just get out of the house. It's become imperative in our marriage to find even just an hour of quality time together makes us better parents.

If you had told me.. that I would barely see my friends the first year. I wouldn't have been able to fathom this. I prided myself on having some of the best friends you could ask for and seeing them somewhat often. Once these monkeys came into my life. I became all consumed. I leave them all week, how could I leave them again? Truth we all become busy bees. It's not a bad thing and I'm fortunate to have such amazing friends that we all still talk regularly. I treasure our time a lot more these days as it's a lot a fewer time than I ever imagined.

If you had told me.. that leaving my tiny humans with someone else for work would be this hard, I wouldn't have thought it possible. I mean it's just leaving them so you can work?! I've cried more days than not. I miss my babies more than I ever thought possible. I NEVER thought I would ever want to stay at home. I seriously debated selling our house so I wouldn't have to go back to work. It was WAY harder than I ever thought imaginable. I think of every worst case scenario. I curse myself for not making better career decisions earlier in life. I pray about this EVERY day. Some days are easier than others. Some I feel like every four letter word possible for leaving my boys with someone else to care for during the day. I feel like I've missed so much!

If you had told me.. that being a good Mommy and a good Full Time employee is impossible. I wouldn't have thought so seeing my amazing coworkers. But let me tell you.. I struggle. If the boys are doing well and sleeping well. I am on my A game. If one baby, both, or worse all three of us are sick.. God helps us. I'm doing good to function during the day. Much less stay on top of work, blog, stay organized, and etc. It all goes to survival mode and I'm doing the bare minimum at most.

If you had told me.. that this entire experience would leave me grateful yet still longing for a third baby. I would have probably slapped you. I've always wanted two kids. My husband is adamant we are done. I'm still struggling if I am okay with that. I want to provide the best Mommy to my children. I want to provide them with things I never dreamed of not to mention college. Maybe I just long for another cuddly squishy baby but my jury is still out on this one. I will say that I won't do any fertility regimes but if God was willing- I would be over the moon grateful!

If you had told me.. that I would become one of those Moms that cries at everything! I mean EVERYTHING! I would have rolled my eyes at you. Because those people were just annoying to even be around. I mean to cry? It used to make me super uncomfortable. Now.. I cry at everything too. I'm one of those!

If you had told me.. that your heart would fill so full. I would have never grasped it. It's unlike anything you can explain. This tiny human was inside you, from you, a part of you. It's completely unlike anything I've ever experienced. I can't even describe how much I love my two little monkeys. I'm still in awe that God entrusted me to be their Mommy.

Linking up with Danielle.

Linking up on Thoughts for Thursday with Annie and Natalie.

Tuesday, September 6, 2016

11 months!

One week ago today this little monkeys turned 11 months! I can't even believe that in 3 weeks I will have 1 year olds! Cue all the tears! For now here are my 11 month olds..

Bennett (On the Right)
Weight/Height from 07/07/16 appointment: You weigh 19lbs 4.3oz and are 2' 5". 
Sleep: You are still sleeping like a champ for the most part. 
Clothes and Diaper Size: Most clothes are 12 months- 18months. You are in size 3 diapers.
Diet: Formula, purees, and regular food. You LOVE eating off Mommy's plate. You literally scream if anyone is eating anything around you. You want to eat too. 
Products We Love: Still loving our Phil and Ted's Lobster chairsSophie, and your lovie. Love your new car seat too!
Milestones: We have a crawler!!! You are everywhere these days and seem much happier now you can follow your brother around and get into everything!
Likes: You sing, babble, and laugh. You love looking at yourself in the mirror. Love cuddling (be-still my heart!), and being held. Love to eat and being sung to. Love stretching and hanging out in your bead- just like your Mommy!
Dislikes: Being left out or alone. Being hungry. Having to be still to get your diaper or clothes changed.

Cameron (On the Left)
Weight/Height from 07/07/16 appointment: You weigh 21lb 11.3oz and are 2' 6" tall. 

Sleep: It's been hit or miss this month since you've been sick for most of this month- ear infections and suspected seasonal allergies. 
Clothes and Diaper Size: Wearing 12 months-18 months now. Size 3 diapers.
Diet: Formula, purees, and regular food. Your brother screams for food and when we feed him.. you then scream for some too. You can kill a cracker in no time flat and still love all the sweet fruits!
Products We Love: Still loving your Phil and Ted's Lobster chairs and SophieLove your new car seat too!
Milestones: Still pulling up to stand and are a little daredevil when it comes to climbing and getting into things. 
Likes: Standing up, holding your hands so you can attempt to walk, and being able to see everything. Love being sung to and clapping at everything. 
Dislikes: Laying down or anywhere where you can't see everything, not getting attention when you want it and being hungry. Still not the biggest fan of the pool. Hate having your diaper changed or changing clothes.

Time PLEASE slow down!!